Chapter 5 – Broken Heart, Wounded Soul

God Who Heals The Wounded and Broken

Psalm 147:3

“He Healeth the broken in heart, and Bindeth up their wounds.”

Psalm 34:17

“The righteous cry, and the LORD Heareth, and Delivereth them out of all their troubles.”

 

A deep sigh and long silence began a short but clear picture of some of what Kaiyah’s story was. Jodie began by telling me the puppies that I had seen at the pet store were actually her puppies. Kaiyah had been found wandering on a Native American Reservation in northern Arizona. For the rescuers she had all the signs of physical abuse and neglect. They believe she had chewed her way to freedom, which my vet later confirmed by the damage on her teeth, and had begun wandering her way to find safety and to find food. They also came to understand she must have been pregnant at the time and had the puppies out in the desert. Kaiyah had been in full survival mother mode when they had received a call telling them about her and the pups. She had been seen wandering alone with her puppies clearly hungry and suspicious of everyone. When the rescuers arrived they could not catch her but were able to get her puppies. Kaiyah in full protective panic had chosen to give up her freedom to stay with them. That is how they had rescued her. They found a foster care home for the short time that remained for her puppies to be weaned and then they took away her ability to have more babies by having her spayed. It was at that time they put the puppies up for adoption and had kept her there during the separation. That was the day I saw her for the first time, the Divine Appointment. She mentioned that while under foster care she was a good dog, very quiet and a wonderful mother and stayed mostly to herself.

I was quiet as I tried to sort through what I had just heard and how much it confirmed what I believe the Lord had been revealing to me about Kaiyah and her name.  I prayed with new awareness for healing of Kaiyah’s broken heart and for all the wounds to be bound by our Loving Creator. Already having been around many, many, many wounded and broken people, and one myself, and living creatures, I knew this would be a work only He could do to its fullness. I knew I needed Him to take care of everything and instruct me in the way to help her, to help me and ultimately those around me. Even though I knew this I still needed to know. There have been many times I have assumed responsibilities or carried the burdens for things way beyond me, and to this day, this is still a work in progress. Thankfully the Lord is the Fruit He Gives and is exceptionally Kind, Forgiving and Merciful, and I for sure still need all of that from Him. It was a lot to take in at that moment.  I had many thoughts and emotions I was dealing with and glanced down at Kaiyah who was resting quietly by my little arm chair. I didn’t know what to say so I just kept quiet.

Jodie then asked me how Kaiyah was with the two cats. Of course, she had been respectful and subdued with zero aggression toward them. She said that was wonderful and how important that is for people to know about huskies. She had shared that not every husky is good with cats but many are. I didn’t know a thing about that as I have always tried to take animals at face value. I try to do that with people too. Every creature has its own disposition and circumstance from which stems its behavior and character even though they may have distinct patterns associated with breed or type. No need for prejudices although it is wise to be discerning and not naïve. Having been a more trusting naïve person for many years, and sometimes still am, I continue to learn what I had written in one of my English papers and said umpteen times ever since my teens, “Ignorance is not bliss but a dreadful blindness.” It is so important to find, with God’s Counsel, that balance of rightly discerning and not being ignorantly naïve or judgmental. I knew practically nothing about huskies other than I have always thought them to be beautiful, amazing, mysterious canines much like the wolf and coyote. Jodie asked for pictures of Kaiyah with her two new kitty friends and said that could help others be more open to adopting huskies in the future. I assured Jodie I absolutely would and sure enough did later. We ended the call with an arranged time for me to dispose of the cage to her and encouraged each other in our care for God’s creatures.

I had solid answers and new questions. It was wind down time and I needed to be still which for me was not so easy. Esther and Gideon were resting quietly, always calming for me to be by cozy kitties, and Kaiyah was tucked in her little ball by the arm chair. It was a good moment to just be. Calling to mind that “the righteous cry, and the LORD Heareth, and Delivereth them out of all their troubles”, my heart poured out all the deep things that I couldn’t put into words, all the concerns and worshipful gratitude I had for my Papa God’s Guidance and Steadfastness… His Deliverance…and His Healing.

I sat quietly with my heart rested against His.

…Until we meet again…